welcome to my thoughts

i'm supposed to be getting lifeguard certified again an hour away from where i live and both the places i was gonna stay have fallen through trying to convince my dad to get me a cheap hotel wish me luck

one thing that pisses me off most when im dating someone when they don't trust you and wont let you go out if theyll be another guy when i date you i like you i only wanna be with you just fucking relax trust me and let me do my thing - also when they wanna be with you 24/7 like i need my girl time i need time with my baby sisters GIVE ME SPACE but also be obsessed with me and talk to me and chill with me

lowkey just need someone who will snuggle with me, bring me food and just be chill

honestly all i want is to be happy 24/7 and to make people happy when they're around me i already do things to make me happy and except when im stressed i feel like im a very positive person but its hard sometimes sometimes you just feel sad sometimes you wanna drop out of school and run away and get a puppy thats kinda how i feel right now

i can say 100% that april is my least favorite month i love spring time but with april comes the last weeks of school where you count down the days and with the last weeks of school means finals which means studying your life away - i can't wait until school releases my life from its claws i cant wait to get away summer is my happy time where all i care about is me because during the year i care so much about what people think of me and pleasing people and heh im over that

i'm moving in 8 weeks and that comes with a lot of purging and thinking not only getting rid of things but people i'm moving away whos gonna stick with me... whos gonna be a real one? is anyone?? but who am i gonna ditch? i feel like i'm only friends with some people because i go to school with them or im in class with them or they wont leave me alone and im too nice to be mean. too many thoughts and decisions